A Fresh Start

When I reflect back, I realize I had no identity, myself, outside of the reflection of what my husband and children defined who I was. I totally lost who I was...maybe it was marrying someone older.going straight from my parents to marriage,never out on my own,.or maybe it was my own insecurities from a very low self esteem..but whatever it was, I was a chameleon.  I agreed with who I was with, I never had my own opinion, I never could make a decision on my own. I was so insecure, and now realize, battled with self worth and depression.

It took a marriage going steadily downhill, until it finally fell apart.. Looking back I now realize we were living two different lives for a long time. I was forced to be dependent on myself, not someone else,when the marriage ended. Now, thank God we have a good friendship.

I think God has a plan for us all, and even through difficult trials, he has a light at the end of the tunnel. It took years, but I am now stronger in my faith and in myself than I ever was. Now I  still have a LONG way to go; I still have financial issues I have to solve from years of wrong decisions; I still struggle with my self esteem; and  I really want to be more self sufficient in my life. This blog is my journey....Will you join me?????